If you have read my posts in the last few weeks, you will have noticed that I was flying through some turbulence. In fact a lot of turbulence. But now I have determined that it is time the seatbelt sign came off and normal service began.
Everything from my own ill health to my son needing an overnight hospital stay to broken friendships to losing all the data from my budgeting app on my iPod; it was complete chaos. I am hoping I don’t have to hear about anaesthetics, spinal taps, super bugs or brachycardia again for as long as I live. I am fed up with life dealing to me and want to turn things around.
The question is how. Being grateful for what I still have and living in the here and now would be a start. I found it surprisingly hard to do either when things were hurtling at me from every direction. All I had the strength for was to put one foot in front of the other and keep going with the minutiae of daily life. The onslaught has lessened and I can see things to be grateful for. Jacob made it through his General Anaesthetic, we have a plan of action regarding the diagnosis of his metabolic condition and I understand better about a positive diagnosis for MRSA. I have created space in my life for new things to come to my life and not being able to track my daily expenses is giving me a lesson in “going with the flow” and not being in complete control all the time.
I have made it through the first term at University and may even get an A- and the blog continues to be a source of inspiration to me. I have several good friendships and Jacob turns 7 next week. So I do have a lot to be grateful for and that realisation has given me the courage to say to the Universe that it can continue to throw things at me, but it will not bring me to my knees. I am taking off my seatbelt and getting on with my life……