My little Toyota Starlet, who will soon be a fully grown adult of 18 years, has been making some strange noises recently. On Christmas day, a friend who was in the car with me said it was possibly front left ball bearings. Last night, on the way back from dinner at a friend’s house half an hour away, the car was sounding very sick indeed. A chat with my dad this morning brought up the possibility that it was the CV joint. Turning up extra early at the mechanic’s in the hope it be fixed today proved fruitless. He won’t be open again until the 5th.
Yesterday, I was reading the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. He talks about how being fully conscious gives us the ability to see every event in our lives as it is rather than as negative or positive and using it as an opportunity to be fully present in the here and now. So I have decided to see the car troubles as they just are rather than allow myself to wallow in negativity of it. He talks about how we often use negativity as currency to buy back happiness when things don’t go our way. When someone in our lives don’t behave the way we want them to behave, we spew forth negativity in the hope that it will somehow make them do what we want them to do. By making them feel miserable and guilty, we are trying to manipulate them. If we can somehow step back from it and accept things as they are right now, then we can transmute the event that would somehow cause us pain. In relationships, it would help us create a way past whatever it was that would have normally caused disharmony.
It was an “aha” moment for me looking at how we react to things in this way. I am not feeling anxious like normally would about not having a car for another week at least. In fact, I am tempted to wait till I have enough money to pay for the repair in cash rather than rush back to the mechanic as soon as he opens in the New Year. Will keep you posted:).