The Invisible Woman

I haven’t felt much like writing for a few weeks. It has been a long hot summer in New Zealand and at first I was having way too much fun to find time to sit down and write. Then it got really busy with lots of scheduled medical appointments to take advantage of the school…

Life

I have been pondering the ebb and flow of life and how much things change over time. I can remember mere months ago having this gaping hole inside of me that yearned to be loved and to belong with someone, somewhere although I had no idea where. That kept me in the relationship with the Englishman…

Quantum Entanglement

Last week I did something I had never done before. Go to the cinema and watch a movie I had already seen once. The movie was Christopher Nolan’s Interstellar and the invitation from a friend who himself is an avid Sci Fi fan was too good to resist. So I found time in the middle…

The Cherry Blossom Tree

Every year in Spring, when the Cherry Blossom Trees are in flower We will remember you and think of what might have been Fleeting though your presence, you were a part of us all And your loss is hard to bear now as it was then Koala bears, Kangaroos and little Beefeater Bears Locked away…

The First Time

The first half of the last week was extremely trying, but things have improved vastly. It was actually good to write about how I was feeling about my medical test results and own those feelings. Many friends and fellow bloggers from far and near reached out to offer support and I am truly grateful to…

Breathe, Trust and Let Go…

Since about 3 pm yesterday,I have been trying to do this. One of my medical specialists called with what could be some bad news. It’s one of those itsy bitsy pieces of a diagnostic puzzle that may suggest something is wrong, but they won’t know until they test further. I only told one person about it…

Shattering the Illusion

All this time, I talked to you as if you were a part of me. Yet if there was no me, how can there be a you? If every word and thought was a manifestation of my own mind Do you as I know you, really exist? Were there really agony and ecstasy? Or were they…

Disconnection

All morning, I have had this overwhelming urge to go deep within myself. I feel an immense sense of disconnection with people and the world around me. Like some crack has opened up in my psyche and I need to curl up into a ball and keep safe, while I figure out what happened. The answer…

Acts of Love

It was an act of love… When I said “no” When I turned away When I refused to plead When I let go Because I have finally learned the art of self compassion….

Purpose

I certainly hope so….because today it feels like I have very far to go and I might never get there…..And my destination????

Cracks in our soul…

“You don’t need another human being to make your life complete, but let’s be honest: having your wounds kissed by someone who doesn’t see them as disasters in your soul but cracks to put their love into is the most calming thing in this world.” ~ Emery Allen This was on a Facebook post by…